Broken Hearted
Waiting for the phone to ring.
Day to day just being.
Feeling empty and not complete.
Wanting to hear the sound of your heartbeat.
Each day that passed more of me died.
Figuring out that you lied.
Trying so hard to find my better half.
To comfort me and make me laugh.
Broken and defeated wanting to know.
How could you just leave me and go?
Lost and listening for the phone.
Hoping to hear you say "I'm on my way home."
Day by day I sat in tears.
Having to sell all our gear.
To live, to eat, and just go on more.
One by one watching our things walk out the door.
Hoping and praying I could leave soon.
To see the one I love to the moon.
Just about at wits end.
Stressed and praying for a friend.
But friends only came to take and use.
Knowing I needed help they seemed amused.
A week late helping me out.
Leaving the next day they cleaned us out.
Finally off to meet with my love at last.
Six hour ride so gave all our money for gas.
Having a lot of time to think.
I had to stop for a drink.
I don't understand what you were doing all this time.
Telling myself everything will be fine.
As I find out all that went on.
You made me see our love was gone.
Written By: Heather Cole
7/25/2017
This poem was written after my boyfriend at the time left on June 28th 2017 and said he would be right back. I didn't hear from him for almost a week. Then he kept telling me he was on his way in couple hours. Then it was someone would come get me in couple hours. Telling me he was still in Arkansas but wasn't. Tried to report car stolen and police said since we lived together and he was my boyfriend that they couldn't since I let him use my car. He finally came clean and told me he was in Mississippi and my car was stolen from him by a woman he was trying to help. He let me know she had my car for almost 2 weeks then. I found my car finally by texting his phone since she stole it too. The car was totaled. Inside car was trashed, all my tools gone, all camping gear gone and my necklaces that were hanging on my rear view mirror. So when I got to Mississippi I go to police department and they take my report and inform me I had to file my own charges against her. All I could get her charged with was joy riding and property damage. As the ex boyfriend was telling the police his side of the ordeal he said " I was playing captain save- a- ho. I read his messages she had sent to me telling her he loved her and all that also. I was broken and wanted him so much I forgave and listened to his lies for a while after. Had me convinced the girl had friends looking for me to kill me over her stealing my car. Paranoid and running I lost my mind. Listening to the voices in my head again. Homeless and ready to die. Thought my family didn't care.
I'm doing better now and on my meds again. Have a very understanding boyfriend now also. He has the patience of a saint to deal with me. Thank you for reading I feel better now.
Heather
All I had left to take with me to Mississippi.
