Open Up

Open Up

I see you looking at me sometimes.

Makes me wonder whats on your mind.

I know I can be hard to read at times.

Just remember I'm just learning this open mind.

I've been told I was not worth the time.

For so long I had to quiet my mind.

I'm finally able to see.

What I've been hiding inside of me.

I feel it coming in a shout.

The words have begun to flow out.

It may take some time but you will see.

I will bring out the voices inside of me.

So just a Thank You for being able to set my mind free.

Written By: Heather Cole

                    3/20/2018

Who I am

Who I Am

At times I have thought

Man I have done a lot

Hitchhiking all over the states

Hoping to find my place

Seeing all the sites around me

Feeling what it was like to be free

Meeting so many people along the way

I still talk to some of them today

At times I would be amazed at what I was seeing

Knowing only God could create something this amazing

Fields upon fields of sunflowers were a sight

On the beach listening to the sea talk to me late one night

Camping in an open field under millions of stars

Even on a deserted highway not hearing any cars

All these and so many more in my memories

Have made me who I come to be

Written By: Heather Cole

                    2/12/18

Sleepy

Sleepy

So sleepy I can barely see.

Just want to get comfy.

Pull back the blanket and the sheet.

Fluff my pillows nice and neat.

Get snuggled in and warm my feet.

Eyes getting heavier its time I sleep.

Written By: Heather Cole

                    2/23/18

Having a pretty good day. Not feeling so sad or lonely. Nice to right something kinda cute and funny. Have a good night everyone. 

Hair Today

Hair Today

Two hair ties ready to use

Deciding on which hair-do

Leave it down flowing all over the place

Or up in a bun showing my face

Maybe a pony tail will do the trick

Man my hair is getting thick

Let me see

Two pig tails it will be

See nothing wrong with me today

I'm having a good hair day

Written By: Heather Cole

                    2/2018

Praying

Praying

Thinking one day

When was the last time I prayed

I forgot when

So I decided to pray right then

God, I hope your listening to what I say

Please help me each day

Free me from these voices in my mind

They have been so unkind

Take away all this pain I feel

Please God help me heal

As I finished I could feel the release

My mind was calm, body more at ease

Thank you God its nice to speak again

I've always known you are my friend

AMEN

Written By: Heather Cole

                    9/5/2017

Walking Thoughts

Walking Thoughts

Music up all the way

Mind begins to slip away

Feet moving to the beat

Moving me on down the street

Seeing cars as they pass

Look there are pieces from a crash

Saw something dead about a mile back

Looks like someone tried to put it in a sack

Trash on the ground everywhere

More people should care

Music playing loud still for me

As I watch cars go by me

Heather Cole

2/19/18

The Day We Met

The Day We Met

Look in the mirror and what do I see

A new face staring back at me

It wasn't always like this

I'm happy to see it, it was missed

The face was found just in time I must say

When my life was in disarray

The moment it happened, I an tell you the exact day

February 21 on a cold wet day

I was nervous and began to pop my knuckles

Glad I was sitting I'm sure my legs would have buckled

He looked so calm and at ease that day

I didn't know what to say

At that moment it all began

To think I almost ran

Written By:  Heather Cole

                     April 25, 2017

Multiple Voices

Multiple Voices

Around and around I go.

My mind it never slows.

Always thinking at a fast pace.

Always moving as if in a race.

Keeping busy helps ease my mind.

Keeps me from listening to voices that are so unkind.

They started again the other day.

I'm trying hard not to listen to them today.

Telling me I'm all alone.

No one wants me at home.

Run away now or else we will come out.

Then they will see what your all about.

Your broken and used.

You have been abused.

No one would want to be around you.

The sad, sick and twisted you.

Your broken and have no spine.

You have been told over and over through time.

The abuse makes you feel alive.

It seems it's the only way you seem to thrive.

You see it don't you now?

You have come to love the abuse any how.

Loved it so much it was the only way.

Blind folded with nothing to say.

Quit looking at me! Why do you stare?

I know there is something wrong up there.

I know I'm unworthy of even a glance.

Not worth the time not even for one chance.

You would only be wasting your time.

I'm sure you wouldn't like my kind.

I've been broken to pieces and cant be fixed.

So go on find another better than this.

I go to bed and often cry myself to sleep.

Piled up in a big heap.

I've accepted my life and want to be left alone.

I don't deserve anyone to call my own.

As I write these words out of my head.

I really wish sometimes I was dead.

Written By: Heather Cole

                    Jan. 7, 2018

This might change at some point. I like it but its not right yet.